Mike-Greenaway

Cat got back from the hospital, his urinary infection cured and he's now happily peeing again. Other cats hissed 'cuz he smelled like a hospital, and he's got shaved spots on his legs (and butt region) but my gawd did he miss everyone, everyone missed him to.

Was able to help a friend yesterday. I wish there was more I could do to help him, but we walked and talked and I was there for someone. Won't go into details because it's something he wants to put behind him and I respect the need to move on, I told him I'd be there to help him, and I can walk to his house no problem, so I can back that statement up.

A friend of mine and her boyfriend want to introduce me to a girl, this concept is unfamiliar to me. Not the concept of a girl but why would they want to introduce me to someone when I'm just minding my own business and hanging out with them? What are their intentions?

having trouble thinking, hitting head on things, still feel like something's eating me from the inside... Yep, journal time. There's an anime convention drawing close, I'm thinking of doing a Steve Irwin Croc Hunter costume and go around going "Oh Croikey! A bawks Gundam!" or "Ohhh Look 'ere! A Pyramid 'Ead! 'E's a Beauty!" expect some pics and probably a video of me getting hit by something.

At times I think I'm being fussy, at other times I think people just toy with me. Honestly I don't think I think, as the title of this journal could suggest. It's been one of those days where the neurons really haven't been firing, and if they have they haven't been firing at anything in particular. Ideas pop up but it's hard to get them down on paper before they just vanish again. It's a wee bit frustrating.

for a brief while things felt better, the pain was gone and things seemed to improve.

Nope, now that pain is back and stronger than ever, which is odd because it's back when there's a lapse in the things that quite possibly were just numbing it, distracting me from that sensation in my rib-cage. I also have the bugbears of Unshakable Doubt and Rampant Speculation clinging to my back, and a history of trouble with bugbears, those things be nasty.

I plan to throw a few more Topics out soon, since they tend to manifest when I'm in pain and pain is a great motivator. On top of that a friend of mine is helping me with some physical work-outs as well as other things. Thinking of undergoing a rather silly scheme in march and he's thinking of undertaking a grand and well planned endeavor in the same building at the same time. As such I chill with him more and he helps me out. Being around people kills the sense of loneliness and uselessness that plagues me. I wonder if it's a cure or just a placebo masking the symptoms...

Though at the same time I'm looking a bit more trim and refined, might shave again soon, might let a beard happen. Newer, Meaner Me? Gustaff or Mike? Nah, shave and keep it soft and simple. Would I really let something like that come up? Make myself a bit more gritty and bad tempered? Of course not. I hope I never have a side of me like that, best if I keep positive, smile and the world smiles with you.

Plodding because my knees hurt like hell, hah!

I feel purposeless and useless, good way to start 2012. Plan to write, trying out some media editing. That won't go on here but I'll probably link to whatever I make in journal entries. I'll still work on Topics and add onto the Observer's Journal, though that'll happen when and if I get out of this funk I've fallen into. Certainly open for funk escaping suggestions, any ideas?

I want to start by wishing my friend Richard DiCastri a happy birthday, and I'm going to be enjoying his party on Sunday. Well, enjoying a majority of Sunday being his party. I'll discuss the event and other such happenstance in my next journal, probably a pre-christmas christmas journal.

Also I'd like to point out that I'm going to be undertaking Open Topics. As many of you can see, I've started a series called "On the Topic of" and I've got a large number of posts. Give me a topic, give me a word, a concept, a phrase, and I'll dedicate a topic to you and put one hundred and ten percent into writing it ASAP. Just leave the topic you want me to work on in the replies to this journal.

Lechinmaru, I wish you the very best. You know what you mean to me, please don't forget me.